CLASSY SWEET AND SUBTLE

cuci-cuci time..

assalamualaikum.hye bloggie!! as you can see from da pics colllection below,theres a date which d date when my stress level ws up many notches until to da point which i feel i wanna shopping d women’s items.handbags and shoes of course.those are my favvvv yaaww!! but,no money maa..so i ws planned to other activity.washing car of course!! besides,washing car is one of da way to burn our ‘stubborn’ calories.=,=.huh.

my car ws full wif d nasty ‘taik burung’.eeerrgghh!!! yyuuucckksss!! bloody idiot bird!!! huh. but twas fun when you washed your car by ur own,plus wif d craazzzyyyy,mereng frends.let me introduce them to u.there are nana,nona,any,bella and alyn.~besties~ thanks for helping me n actually dat i 1 of my plan to bully all of u.haha!! am to cruel???

hhuurrmm…hw to start?? juz siram lahhh!!!

ommgggg!!!! look at my hair.it jz like there is strong windy blow through my hair.

actually quiet panas kott on dat day.thank god there is no flies going into my mouth.

wat a weird face! huhuhu.look at two friends.idk whether they jz wanna be glamour in my blog or keep doing their duty.

nice n cute!!

working hard to make it shining.like crystal clear.cn we do dat??? wat a nonsence!

lets check it out where to start.

bella n nona keep bubbling.meeting maybe.

spongebob squarepants!! haha!

omg.wat did i do?? totally bloody hell.

its magic kann??? nona hold up her kain but u cant even see her leg.omg! magic cam from alyn n brilliant photographer from nana!!

any,its shine enough already…

I LUV DIZ PIC.BOTH OF THEM LOKK SOOO ROMANTIC.any n alyn,u shud make diz pic as ur profile pic in ur fb profile.

ADDICTED WITH CITY VILLE

Hey! Lets play city ville! dun be shy to add me as ur neighbour.more neighbour is better.ADD ME yaww!

da most sad moment :(

oh my bloggie..sorry a lot for not updating you.i was really busy before.a lot incident had happened on da day when im not updating u,bloggie.sad,happy,joyous,masochism.but da most unforgettable moment is da day when my beloved grandpa passed away.da moment when he got to leave this world and his family for forever.seriously my mind ws misurable when he ws in critical condition.what i mean by critical condition is in coma condition whereby he cant talk,smile or even see me and da whole his family for da last time.he just lying and breathed with the help of machine.which i can say “life machine”.u must be curious hw my grandpa can be like dat right? twas an accident.motorcycle crashed.a boy at da age 15 ws took his way wif da high speed.then,my grandpa ws fell but the incridible thing is he still can bring himself up and ride his motorcycle as usual he did.the time when he got home,he got problem during breathed.and suddenly da blood ws coming out from his mouth just like like d volcano explode.my grandpa ws grabbed my aunt and also grandma tightly.which shows dat twas d last hold,touch,memory from as a dad n husband.i neva stop praying for him until now.today,16 days he had leave us.he was back to rahmatullah at 2.35am,friday,21st jan 2011,16 safar. AL-FATIHAH TO MOHAMMED B.OTHMAN.

sunway lagoon

twas a fun time before the examination started.but,sorry for twin cz we were not wait for ya.

any,nona,yy..3 of them in excited mode.

here again!

get ready! any was waving her hand like a winner of the bicycle race competiton.lol!

after have a round at d sky.luv ya ferris wheel.this the only thing dat i bravely sit.haha.im afraid of height! height is such uurrgghhh..bloody hell!!

yy.peace from yy!

swim,swim,swim

oh my! this is d nice post.but there was a secret actually.huhu.bella’s foot was bleeding.haha.dat is y she posted by showing her feet at you,guys.haha.huurrmm..i hope my blog will not turn smelly afta dis.jez kidding.sorry bell! ahakz!

and suprise! the same posted from bella! have a look at her foot.huhu.thank god nona have the enough energy to suppot yy’s weight.haha.

omg!! everyone ws so tired.look at my bottle.its juz like i ws neva ever drink for a decade.plus,i was quite starving during dat time.ugly.shoot!! i hate dis pic actually.

me,bella,nona,yy.

‘L’ feet post from any and yy.for ur in4mation,dat is not a plan.huhu.

can u see hw fun and joy we were??

twas look like 3 bears over there and only any is a human.

wet.fun.laugh.screem.

i miss my younger..ME

I looked down at my hands today & I realized I don’t have little kid hands anymore,

my hands have signs of work in them,

my veins are visible and my fingers are long like my Mother’s[actually mine’s even longer]

I always loved her hands and remember looking at my little girl(cousin) hands

wishing they weren’t so small…..

weren’t so stumpy,

I wanted elegant hands to put pretty rings on.

I don’t know when it happened but today my hands belonged to a woman,

they didn’t belong to a little girl anymore and it made me miss being young with my whole body….

It made me miss everything about it,the curiosity,the innocence.

I miss clutching to my Daddy’s hands that were so much bigger than mine,

that protected and took care of me.

I miss swinging all of my body weight on one grip.

I miss picking out dresses and patent leather shoes that you could see your reflection in.

I miss licking the all the frosting off the tops of cupcakes,

I miss picking dandelions and crushing the yellow petals between my delicate tiny little fingers.

I miss thinking a vanilla ice cream cone was the best thing in the whole world,

and that noodle soup could really cure anything

or a kiss would make anything feel better..

I miss when I didn’t know what it felt like to miss somebody, and

I was just excited to see someone I loved at the end of the day.

When I didn’t know the feeling of sorrow,or hearts falling

when I didn’t know that not everyone in the world is kind and open.

When I assumed “good” was always the outcome

and if someone “promised” that was enough of a contract.

I miss sticking my tongue out at strangers,making strange noises and throwing temper in public.

I miss being connected to myself enough to cry when I was sad.

When being analytical,calculated,and manipulative weren’t a means to get what you wanted, but a simple “please” would do.

The times when I was conscious of saying my “thank you’s” and “excuse me’s.”

I miss when I was supposed to have a sense of wonder, and people wouldn’t warn that soon I would be “hardened” I miss softness.

Blankies,and stuffed animals! I miss bedtimes and birthday parties,crushed Goldfish and “snack time.” 

When I didn’t have to be accountable.

When the only fear I knew was that of the dark.

When the perfect vacation was one that involved people in costumes with pink cheeks, and parades.

“Play dates” over real ones.

Before insecurity and awareness,before anxiety and doubt,

before I knew anything about my body and

I used it as a means to live in ….skip,stretch,climb, and ride bikes.

I miss when guilt, lack, regret, or disappointment weren’t emotions that existed to me.

I miss when love was really unconditional, when faith just was, and security always meant Mom and Dad.

When I look at my hands I’m proud of them, I like that they look like my Mom’s,

that they move quickly and have strength,

I just wish that they could have stayed young,

that I could have stayed young…a little bit longer….

but I’m reaching my twenties by next year.sigh :(

nostalgic

certain things can trigger certain emotions in people. sometimes, if your lucky i believe, certain things remind people of YOU. your memory surfaces in their minds when they hear a song, read an article, drink something, laugh at a joke or just lie face upwards staring at the open starry skies…

today, it happened to me. you know, when your just idly sitting somewhere, thinking of something mundane, and looking mental as you chuckle quietly to yourself as you relate a certain event to a certain someone in your life. these people are the people whom you’ve spent almost all your life getting to know, falling in love with them. good or bad, who really cares? their awesome to you, they treat you like you really mean something … you really matter to them. when their hurt, you hurt. when their happy, you are part happy, and part worried, wondering how long will this last until the next thing comes crashing down?? and when your out of it, over the moon mental with joy, over the moon down with tears, these are the PEOPLE I THINK ABOUT IN LIFE!!!

i breathe them in. i survive because i have a mum who makes me feel like the most precious gift on Earth, a dad who takes time to send me a text every morning with a “hi kutty, hows ur day?”, some bestfriends , who take me in for who i am and who stick by my decisions and who just completely crack me up whenever i need a laugh, i have two adopted mum’s, peits mum and kee’s mum who i LOVE to lepak with. their uber cool for their ages. they are my best friend’s mums’. and then i have a grandma who makes me tear up everytime i think of the day that she will leave me, and i know, that day will probably come sooner than expected. after all, we are all mortals.

so let me just sum up, what things remind me of who….and hopefully, this list will grow and grow as the years go by, as i mature. to include more people who will come to mean more to me. maybe, god willing, it will include a nice guy, and a couple of kids as well.

Juno

I finally got the chance to watch Juno just now and I must admit that I enjoyed every bit of it. For starters, it isn’t like any other teen pregnancy movie,where the teen gets banged(this is the part they conveniently forget to wear a condom), gets preggie, the baby’s father dumps the girl, the girl’s parents dumps her out of the house and she finds a new love along the way and gives birth to the kid, wanting to bring it up all by herself. No, none of that bullshit. I’m not condemning that kinda movies, it just seem very illogical to me. so yea, Juno is different. For those of you who haven’t watched it, do yourself a favour and get the dvd or download it. Besides that, I love the songs being played in the movie.Listen to the lyrics as you watch the movie:) Nuff said, i shall insert the plot here in my blog extracted from a little online magic known as wikipedia:)



Plot:
Sixteen-year-old Minnesotan high-schooler Juno MacGuff (Ellen Page) discovers she is pregnant with a child fathered by her friend and longtime admirer, Paulie Bleeker (Michael Cera). While at first she intends to have an abortion, she changes her mind and decides to make a plan for the child’s adoption. With the help of her friend Leah (Olivia Thirlby), Juno searches the ads in the Pennysaver and finds a couple she feels will provide a suitable home. Along with her father, Mac (J. K. Simmons), Juno meets the couple, Mark and Vanessa Loring (Jason Bateman and Jennifer Garner), in their expensive home and expresses a desire for a closed adoption.



Vanessa is extremely anxious around Juno and their initial interactions are uneasy. However, Juno and Leah happen to see Vanessa in a shopping mall being completely at ease with a child, and Juno encourages Vanessa to talk to her baby in the womb, where it obligingly kicks for her. On the other hand, Juno more easily forms a friendship with Mark, with whom she shares tastes in punk rock and horror films. Mark, who has set aside his rock band youth (now confined to memorabilia displayed in the one room of the house allowed him by Vanessa), works at home composing commercial jingles. Juno hangs out with Mark a few times, ignoring a warning from her stepmother Bren (Allison Janney) that she should not spend time alone with a married man.



As the pregnancy progresses, Juno struggles with the emotions she feels for her baby’s father, Paulie, who is clearly—although passively—in love with Juno. Juno maintains an outwardly indifferent attitude toward Paulie, but when she learns he has asked another girl to the prom, she is hurt and angrily confronts him. Paulie reminds Juno that it is at her request they remain distant and tells her that she broke his heart. He also suggests that she has feelings for him she is unable to admit.

Not long before her baby is due, Juno is again visiting with Mark when their interaction becomes strongly emotional. Mark then tells her that he will be leaving Vanessa. Vanessa arrives home, and, to her shock, Mark tells her he does not feel ready to be a father and that there are still things he wants to do first—dreams Vanessa does not share. Juno watches the Loring marriage fall apart, then drives away and cries by the side of the road before coming to a decision. Returning to the Lorings’ home, she leaves a note and disappears before they answer the door.

After a heartfelt discussion with Mac, Juno accepts that she loves Paulie. Juno then tells Paulie that she loves him, and Paulie’s actions make it clear that her feelings are reciprocated. At his track meet, when Paulie notices Juno is not in the stands and realizes she must be in labor, he rushes to the hospital to be with her (she had not told him because she did not want him to miss the meet). He arrives to find Juno has given birth to their son, and comforts Juno as she cries. Vanessa comes to the hospital where she joyfully claims the newborn boy as a single adoptive mother. On the wall in the baby’s new nursery, Vanessa has framed Juno’s note—addressed only to her—which reads “Vanessa: If you’re still in, I’m still in. —Juno.” The film ends in the summertime with Juno and Paulie playing guitar and singing together, followed by a kiss.

excuse me, but i think,since im almost an adult, i ought to have…

some privacy…some right to crazy living every now and then. stop trying to hold me back and quit trying to worm information out of OTHER people regarding the things i do , or the things u think i am doing!

it is irritating.

it shows me straight up, how MUCH you trust me.

it shows me, that no matter how i behave. no matter the good behaviour i always keep up, a wrong slip on my part and you will always be on the lookout so you can come down hard on me. u use it against me over and over again and you think its right to blow everything out of proportion just because, i screwed up on some not-so-major things in MY life.

i live my life being safe. for the 19 plus years that i have had the chance to be alive, i have lived it being quite good. i dont do things that would give me a temporary high, i hardly ever sour my family’s name and i do not behave like some stupid, adolescent teenager that i SHOULD be behaving like. i have not given you cause to worry about me. done all the things that have been asked of me the majority of the time. i study and i try my best to be self-dependent and im trying everyday to not lose my sanity but there you stand, so far away just shaking your head every now and then and JUDGING my every move

do forgive me, but i am not and will NEVER be a perfect mould of whatever

it is you thought u wanted me to be. i am nobody else but me. i am a person who is out there with the every intention of making thousands of mistakes just so, she can sit down one day and joyfully say
“ive lived” with a smile on my face and a million scars to show of my bravery…

why wont you let me??

how long will you point me right from wrong? how long do you think im going to sit back and take it all in while inside of me little by little, im thinking, it is pointless trying to preserve a relationship like this.
how long will you tell me i have disappointed you, when you KNOW i have done nothing of that sort!

HOWEVER, i am quite an intelligent being on most occasions, so i know that you are doing all these things because YOU CARE. simply because you are looking out for my better interest at heart. because you believe that if you put me on the right path, i am going to go on and achieve all those things we planned on paper. the thing is, there is no gurantee. there is no confirmed,signed and sealed plan in life. its a bunch of small little crazy things done on the spur of the moment that makes up life. and if you dont agree, then you know you havent been really REALLY living your life as how you want to.

we can only give up so much just to succeed in the areas we feel are important. sometimes, just sometimes, id like to be selfish and just take FOR MYSELF!